Mind Processing

Mind Processing

Felt I needed to process through multiple things and not sure where to start. So I took my notebook and a pen out. Prayed and told the Holy Spirit to help me release what is inside to bring clarity. So I just drew and out came Mind Processing.

This can be traced within one pen stroke, meaning everything is connected by one line. Then colours were added. Took me possibly about 6-8 hours, using pockets of time over 3 days.

As I drew, I knew that God is opening up my mind to things that were stuck within me. Went through a session of emotional release in prayer for matters that had been troubling me for a while. Blockages were cleared so that the line could continue to form the picture.

May the Lord give me His vision and heart so that I will know what to do for 2018.

Destiny of Orphans

For my father and my mother have forsaken me, But the LORD will take me up. (‭Psalms‬ ‭27‬:‭10‬ NASB)

This Psalm by David reflects his innermost cries to the LORD with verse 4 of him desiring to be in the house of the LORD all the days of his life. 

Verse 10 caught my attention where often times quoted to illustrate us as adopted children of God. As I looked at David’s life from this aspect, the times his family were mentioned, they had very low regard of him. David’s family were never mentioned after his defeat of Goliath. Even when he became the king of Judah and later, of Israel, there was no mention of his parents and siblings joining him in his kingdom. As this verse suggests, they abandoned him. 

It is amazing how this boy without the guidance and protection of natural parents grew up to be upright and full of wisdom. God was His father. God brought him up, trained him and equipped him. Perhaps he may not be who he was if his parents were present and God would not have been able to have full liberty in executing the molding process. 

Family situations and attitudes towards a person might be formative, but their absence puts the child in the hand of God resulting in a totally different outcome. 

JESUS’ PASSION WEEK DEVOTION – DAY 6/6 – The Resurrection

This week’s devotion of the Passion Week from Jesus’ Perspective. The devotions are written as first person, from Jesus’ perspective, like His personal journal of his thoughts and words gathered through Scriptures as the scenes of the Passion Week unfolds.

There are a number of references to the Song of Songs to get a peep into Jesus’ love for His people. As there are many symbolism used in Song of Songs, the list below helps to explain some of them that are found in the verses quotation in this week’s devotions.

  • Shulamite symbolizes Israel and the Church
  • The Beloved symbolizes Jesus Christ, the Bridegroom King
  • Spikenard symbolizes worship
  • Myrrh symbolizes death

This devotion emphasizes more on the heart and the spirit, rather than knowledge.

  • Take time to read the devotion slowly to allow the scriptures and events to go deep into you, beyond your mind.
  • It helps to read it several times, asking the Holy Spirit to bring you deeper.
  • Highlight the portions that jump out at you and write down your thoughts under “Personal Reflection” and also put into writing the response or even commitment that you want to make before God.

Day 6 – The Resurrection

Read Luke 24:1-53; John 20:1-25

The ladies come to my tomb early on Sunday morning. I have descended to the lowest and gained victory over death! This temple I have rebuilt in three days. Here is Mary Magdalene weeping, the least of the women that many looked down but the one who is forgiven much loves much (Luke 7:47). Mary! Now that you have recognised me, do not cling to Me, for I have not yet ascended to My Father; but go to My brothers and say to them, ‘I am ascending to My Father and your Father, and to My God and your God’ (John 20:17).

Who is she who looks forth as the morning,
Fair as the moon, clear as the sun,
Awesome as an army with banners?” – SOS 6:10

My disciples you have assembled behind locked doors for fear of the Jews. Your hearts are hardened and do not believe the testimonies of those who saw me at the tomb (Mark 16:14). I have to come to you this every night for I love you and you mistaken me as a spirit. Why are you troubled, and why do doubts arise in your hearts (Luke 24:38)? Peace be with you. You recognise my pierced hands and side. I eat a piece of broiled fish that you provide as a proof that I am not a spirit but body. You have seen the resurrection of Lazarus. I AM the way, the truth and the life. Blessed are they who do not see my resurrected body, and yet believe. Remember, PEACE be with you.

My breath is the Holy Spirit. Receive my breath of life. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained. Your mind is now opened to understand the Scriptures. All things written about me in the Law of Moses and the Prophets and the Psalms must be fulfilled. I am the Christ. I will suffer and rise again from the dead the third day, and this repentance for forgiveness of sins is to be proclaimed in my name to all the nations, beginning from Jerusalem. You are my witnesses of these things.

Set me as a seal upon your heart, as a seal upon your arm;
For love is as strong as death, jealousy as cruel as the grave;
Its flames are flames of fire, a most vehement flame.
– Song of Songs 8:6

It is time for me to return to my Abba, to sit on His right hand and intercede for you. I bless you my beloved and I will return for you. Wait, wait in the city of Jerusalem for the outpouring of power from heaven. I know you are going to be empowered to do greater things than me on earth.

JESUS’ PASSION WEEK DEVOTION – DAY 5/6 – The Cross

This week’s devotion of the Passion Week from Jesus’ Perspective. The devotions are written as first person, from Jesus’ perspective, like His personal journal of his thoughts and words gathered through Scriptures as the scenes of the Passion Week unfolds.

There are a number of references to the Song of Songs to get a peep into Jesus’ love for His people. As there are many symbolism used in Song of Songs, the list below helps to explain some of them that are found in the verses quotation in this week’s devotions.

  • Shulamite symbolizes Israel and the Church
  • The Beloved symbolizes Jesus Christ, the Bridegroom King
  • Spikenard symbolizes worship
  • Myrrh symbolizes death

This devotion emphasizes more on the heart and the spirit, rather than knowledge.

  • Take time to read the devotion slowly to allow the scriptures and events to go deep into you, beyond your mind.
  • It helps to read it several times, asking the Holy Spirit to bring you deeper.
  • Highlight the portions that jump out at you and write down your thoughts under “Personal Reflection” and also put into writing the response or even commitment that you want to make before God.

Day 5 – The Cross

Read Luke 22:54-23:56; John 18:12-19:37

The high priest and council of elders of Israel cannot find any false witnesses against me. Even the two false witnesses speak correctly that I am going to tear down the temple of God and rebuild it within three days. You do not believe me when I confess that I am Christ, the Son of God, the King of the Jews and call it blasphemy. I feel your spat on my face and the pain of you hitting me with your hands. I know each one of you for I created you. The trial has found me guiltless and you want me to take the place of Barabbas. Yes, I will take the place of Barabbas on the cross. I will take the place of you. It is for this reason that I have come.

O my love, you are as beautiful as Tirzah,
Lovely as Jerusalem,
Awesome as an army with banners! – Song of Songs 6:4

The cross is heavy for my broken body. Bless you Simon of Cyrene for carrying the cross and walking with me. O daughters of Jerusalem, do not weep for me, but weep for yourselves and for your children for greater evil will fall upon them (Luke 23:28-31).

I can feel the nails going through my hands and feet. The weight of the world is felt on my physical shoulders when the weight of my body is on the nails as they hoist my cross up. “Father, forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing” (Luke 23:34). All the reviling, the blasphemy and jeering I put aside for my mind is set on doing Abba’s will. Some women were crying and amongst them, Mary my mother. My beloved disciple John is with her. I know John will take good care of her. Each breath I take is filled with excruciating pain but I know the end of this. “If I am lifted up from the earth, I will draw all peoples to Myself” (John 12:32). I have allowed this temple of my body to be destroyed in a day and I will rebuild it in three days. I will go down to the lowest place for the keys of hades and death so that they will have no hold over my people!

After three hours of darkness, the ninth hour has come. Darkness looms so heavily upon me. All that I need to do on earth is done. Now the weight of the world has come upon my spirit. “Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? (My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?) Abba, into Your hands I commit my spirit.

It is finished.

JESUS’ PASSION WEEK DEVOTION – DAY 4/6 – The Garden of Gethsemane

This week’s devotion of the Passion Week from Jesus’ Perspective. The devotions are written as first person, from Jesus’ perspective, like His personal journal of his thoughts and words gathered through Scriptures as the scenes of the Passion Week unfolds.

There are a number of references to the Song of Songs to get a peep into Jesus’ love for His people. As there are many symbolism used in Song of Songs, the list below helps to explain some of them that are found in the verses quotation in this week’s devotions.

  • Shulamite symbolizes Israel and the Church
  • The Beloved symbolizes Jesus Christ, the Bridegroom King
  • Spikenard symbolizes worship
  • Myrrh symbolizes death

This devotion emphasizes more on the heart and the spirit, rather than knowledge.

  • Take time to read the devotion slowly to allow the scriptures and events to go deep into you, beyond your mind.
  • It helps to read it several times, asking the Holy Spirit to bring you deeper.
  • Highlight the portions that jump out at you and write down your thoughts under “Personal Reflection” and also put into writing the response or even commitment that you want to make before God.

Day 4 – The Garden of Gethsemane

Read Luke 22:39-53 & John 18:1-11.

Gethsemane, another familiar place that feels so different today. I need time alone with my Abba. My beloved disciples sit and wait while I go further. Peter, James and John, stay nearer and watch with me for my soul is extremely sorrowful, to the point of death. Abba! If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine. My heart is even heavier when I find the three sleeping when I ask them to keep watch and stay vigilent for just an hour. Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak! Back to Abba I go. Abba, if this cup cannot be taken away unless I drink it, your will be done. Sweat like blood flows down as I agonize before my Abba. Once again, when I step out, my three are sleeping after my chiding just a while ago! Abba, for the third time I come to you with the same prayer. I submit for these people need me. Seal it and bring it to pass. For the third time, Peter, James and John, you are still sleeping and resting. It is time.

Shulamite
I sleep, but my heart is awake; It is the voice of my beloved!
He knocks, saying, “Open for me, my sister, my love, My dove, my perfect one;
For my head is covered with dew, My locks with the drops of the night.”
– SOS 5:2b

Judas is among the crowd coming towards us with their clubs and swords. Judas, O Judas, you call me rabbi and give me a kiss. My friend, why do you come to me with a kiss of betrayal? My invitation to you is not just to my kingship, but also to my death and sacrifice. Instead of being with me in my death, you have chosen to be on the other side. The crowd takes me like a prisoner, a convict. Peter, I have allowed them to take me and this is the cup from Abba that I have to drink, so keep your sword. I love the high priest servant, Malchus, and your cutting of his ear is not going to change what is to come. I heal Malchus so that he can know me.

Shulamite
I arose to open for my beloved,
And my hands dripped with myrrh,
My fingers with liquid myrrh,
On the handles of the lock. – SOS 5:5

Abba, my diciples are safe as written in Your Word that none that You give me will be lost, except for the betrayer. They have all run away and hide. They are fearful.

JESUS’ PASSION WEEK DEVOTION – DAY 3/6 – The Passover Meal

This week’s devotion of the Passion Week from Jesus’ Perspective. The devotions are written as first person, from Jesus’ perspective, like His personal journal of his thoughts and words gathered through Scriptures as the scenes of the Passion Week unfolds.

There are a number of references to the Song of Songs to get a peep into Jesus’ love for His people. As there are many symbolism used in Song of Songs, the list below helps to explain some of them that are found in the verses quotation in this week’s devotions.

  • Shulamite symbolizes Israel and the Church
  • The Beloved symbolizes Jesus Christ, the Bridegroom King
  • Spikenard symbolizes worship
  • Myrrh symbolizes death

This devotion emphasizes more on the heart and the spirit, rather than knowledge.

  • Take time to read the devotion slowly to allow the scriptures and events to go deep into you, beyond your mind.
  • It helps to read it several times, asking the Holy Spirit to bring you deeper.
  • Highlight the portions that jump out at you and write down your thoughts under “Personal Reflection” and also put into writing the response or even commitment that you want to make before God.

Day 3 – The Passover Meal

Read: Luke 22:7-38; John 13:1-30, 17:1-26

(The Beloved To His Friends)

Eat, O friends!
Drink, yes, drink deeply,
O beloved ones!” – SOS 5:1b

This day of Passover is finally here. With fervent desire I have desired to eat this Passover with you before I suffer. Today the lamb is to be slaughtered. Remember me. Remember me. This matzah, the unleavened bread, will be a reminder of my body. It is without leaven and pricked with holes, just like my body is sinless and is broken for you. This cup of wine is a sign of my new covenant with you for I will fulfill the requirements of the old. By partaking of the wine in my remembrance, you are sharing in my suffering and my victory. You are mine.

Come with me from Lebanon, my spouse,
With me from Lebanon.
Look from the top of Amana,
From the top of Senir and Hermon,
From the lions’ dens,
From the mountains of the leopards
.” – SOS 4:8

Here we are in the upper room all set and ready. This is the last Passover with my twelve disciples who have followed me the last three years. It troubles me deeply that Judas is going to betray me. I have extended my full love and grace over Judas regardless of his stealing and wandering heart. I have washed his feet with the same love as I have for the other eleven after we came into this room. I have bared my heart to him. He has no remorse when I prophesy that he is my betrayer. My end is determined with or without his betrayal. Yet he has chosen the thirty pieces of silver over me. I will not stop him and he has to do what he set out to do. Peter you will deny me trice. Remember this, I have not once stopped loving you despite your weaknesses. I have prayed for you. I have loved my own and loved you to the end (John 13:1b).

Know that I have given you a kingdom, just as My Abba has bestowed one upon me (Luke 29:22). This kingdom is different from that of the world. I have set an example that servitude and humility is the way to greatness. I served you and washed your feet even though I am the greatest. In this way, there is no competition for the first or best.

Abba, I pray that “they all may be one, as You, Abba, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us, that the world may believe that You sent Me. And the glory which You gave Me I have given them, that they may be one just as We are one: I in them, and You in Me; that they may be made perfect in one, and that the world may know that You have sent Me, and have loved them as You have loved Me.” – John 17:20-23.

Stepping Out into the Unknown

Last Saturday, 20 April 2013, I was looking through my iTunes library and found a recording of prophetic word released to me in 2006 by a highly respected minister of God. The focus of the word was directed to my impending mission work in East Timor where I was sent out at that point in time. The summary of the word is that God will perform signs and wonders through me in the land and the lives of the people will drastically improve through community transformation. As I look back, I know deep within me that I did not walk in the fullness of the prophetic word that was given. In my own assessment, I believe I walked about 20-30% of what God intended for me at that point. I did witness AMAZING signs and wonders and was blown away but what I experienced was only the tip of the iceberg that God has in store for me. The journey to Timor was so amazing that YWAM Singapore Faces magazine featured a summary of the my story of how I ended up in Timor. Upon coming back to Singapore, due to pressures from all sides, I did not continue the work and missed out on God’s promise for myself to see the transformation that God will do in this beautiful island. God’s destiny for Timor is not hindered by me as God is bigger than this, but because of the decisions I made, I missed out in being part of a move of God that He has invited me to be part of so as to experience Him in a different way. Below is the article in FACE that summarized God’s amazing work in my journey of mustard faith in 2008.

Article on Faces (YWAM Singapore Publication) in 2009
Article on Faces (YWAM Singapore Publication) in 2009

My church is taking hold of the promise that 2013 will be a year of moving into the new level, a higher level. This is also what the Lord put in my heart as I crossed over into 2013. New level means getting out of my own comfort zone and trusting God in ways I never had before. I cannot let my fear of man and fear of the unknown shortchange me of walking in the fullness of God’s blessings. The only person who can hinder my journey with God is myself.

Here’s the song that has given me much encouragement and strength and hope it blesses you as well! O God, give me Your faith to walk this journey ahead!

Called and Chosen

“For many are called, but few are chosen” – Matthew 22:14

The first question that came was what is the difference between “called” and “chosen”.

The invitation to the wedding banquet in Matthew 22 was extended to all. The first group who are the “worthy” guests who turned down the invitation and some even murdered the messengers of the invitaiton. After this, the banquet was opened to all, even those who were in the streets, both good and evil (v10). All who received the invitation are “called”. Just as how salvation through Jesus Christ is offered to all mankind. The Lord has issued the call for us to come to Him. God initiates the call. 

The next part of it is our response which I believe determines us being “chosen“.There are a few responses within the story which we can glean some lessons from.

The first group of invited guests responded by giving excuses and some even murdered the servants of the king. This was a defiance to the king, even to a point of challenging the king’s authority and power. This first type of response denied the invitees of any opportunities of being chosen by the king.

The second group of invitees were those whom we least expected to be invited to a king’s wedding banquet. The commoners, perhaps the modern day equivalent is the grassroots, who in the natural had no direct contact or association with the king. Interestingly, it is recorded that both evil and good were invited. There was no discrimination. This meant that  there could be criminals, crooks and dubious characters in the crowd who were invited. Many of these came to the banquet as in v10 it recorded that the hall was filled with guests. Those who remained in the banquet were chosen as they responded to the call of the king and came for the banquet.

Yet, there was a mention of one man among the wedding guests who lost his state of “choseness”. Culturally, the wealthy host of the banquet provides wedding clothes to be worn over the guests own clothes at the door before entry into the hall. This man was entitled to his wedding clothes too and thus poverty was not a reason for not wearing one. We do not know the reason why he didn’t put on the wedding clothes as he remained speechless when questioned. Some reasons I can think of are “I don’t need to wear this additional piece”, “the design doesn’t suit me”, “it is not that crucial or important”, or even “I am not worthy to wear this”, or maybe “I just don’t feel like wearing it”. Whatever his reason was, he was thrown out into the darkness, and note that it was not back to the streets where he came from. It was the grace of the king that the invitation was extended to the commoners in the streets. By defying the protocol of respect to the king, this man forfeited the position of “choseness” and ended up in a similar state as the first group of invitees.

This brings a sober awakening to my response to the call of God. The putting on of the wedding clothes signifies the robes of righteousness provided for by the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ so that we can stand before the King of kings. Yet, underlying this, there is a call to obedience and submission to the ways of the King. It is not according to what I like or don’t, or I think is reasonable or don’t. It is about the ways of the King. This sounds like a dictorship kind of situation. Yet taking a step back I ask myself if I always know what I want, and if I am always able to assess what is truly good for me, not just for the moment but my entire life? An honest answer to this is no, I do not. If there is a God who is omnipotent (all powerful) and omniscient (all knowing) and loves me with His perfect love, should I not release my rights and let him lead the way in which I have limited sight to… 

“For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11

Arabian Wedding Banquet